Seminary Kick Off

Tonight we attended the seminary kick off for 2015/2016. This is Tyson's 2nd year.

I have a lot of emotions. We are in SUCH a busy time that adding 5 am mornings sounds crazy. At the same time Tyson and I are both very aware of the blessings that we felt last year. Tyson more than anything wants to make Heavenly Father proud. He has learned a lot about himself during this time. 

So we took the girls to the fireside. Sydney did not nap today and our usual 30 minute nap in the care on the way also did not happen. Needless to say I was worried. But the girls did really well. Sydney was getting really impatient for ice cream but we were able to make it. Well then Tyson said he wanted a blessing and I told him we needed to get home quick to put the girls down. He went into a room with everyone else and I walked the girls outside trying to buy time. After 20 minutes and almost at 9 PM , we went back in and stood in the office waiting area. Tyson comes out and tells me he still needs his blessing. At this point I'm just annoyed and tired. 

The stake counselor says "leave the girls outside in the waiting area and why don't you come in and listen to Tysons blessing." I just wanted to get home but I went in. He started Tyson's blessing and I sat there and tried to have a good attitude, But the the most amazing thing happend. The counselor kindda stopped mid blessing and said "I feel impressed to bless your wife" - I have never heard of something like that happend. It was almost as if Heavenly Father said "wait a minute, I got something for Martha" during Tyson's blessing. 

He blessed me with coursage and strength to support Tyson. He blessed us as a couple that we would have a better marriage because of this and that we would be happier as a couple. He blessed Tyson's work so that ESS would be very happy with Tyson's work. 

I can't describe how I felt. I wanted to put on a brave face, but tears just rolled down my face. I felt like Heavenly Father was trying to tell me that he KNOWS this is hard on me and our family. He KNOWS I am struggling and feel my depressions creeping up again. He KNOWS how much I wonder if this is doing any good for us - and he answered me right then and there. This wonderful counselor never met us before and did not know us fron Adam - but I know he was saying things that he could have never made up. 

When it was over Tyson was crying and I was crying. Heavenly Father really did know our little family and not just in the good times, but in the times that we are holding on and doing our best to survive but still try and do our part to serve - and he  knows that HARD. I feel very humbled and loved right now. I wanted to write this so I can look back. 

On the way home we talked about the massive blessings that we felt his first year of teaching - specifically my ability to start my VA business and get the amazing clients that I have now. 

I don't know what this next year has for us. Our main focus and worry is really just getting into our little house. Life will be so much better when we can actually get into the house. 

It was a really really neat experience tonight.