So Far

See that photo of Tyson with the girls and me sleeping - yup that is life right now. I am sicker than a dog. Everyday I struggle just to make it through the day. The girls just know mommy is sick. I've only thrown up once but I dry heave 10 times hour. I feel so sick. I have to eat every hour and drink flavored water to stay hydrated. Most days are ok since I can lay down  and work until I pick up the girls. But the poor girls just watch TV until Tyson gets home. 

We have been eating out a lot - more than any other pregnancy - I just can't handle cooking or even looking at food. It's been really hard. I try to stay positive but most days I just feel so sad. Tyson is at school and stressed out -  this makes it even worse. On Mondays and Wednesday it takes all my effort to take the girls to swimming lessons - but at least the girls really love it and I feel good about them being active. 

So that's it. That's  my update. It's been hard and I am praying it gets better. 

2017 Starting Out With A Bang

Well even though 2017 is only 18 days in - boy has it brought some HUGE surprises.

The biggest one is that I found out I'm pregnant. I am right at 7 weeks. 

I wish I could tell you I was happy - but to be honest I am very sad. I was so extremely content with my little family. But like all trials you never ask for them and yet they make you better. 

I am pulling all my strength to see this in a positive way. 

This is surely God's work since we were preventing in multiple ways. So here I am, pregnant and so sick I can barely do anything. We were suppose to leave to Cancun on Saturday for a much needed vacation but we canceled it. Between me being so sick and the Zika virus - we just felt it was better to stay. We are bummed. But this is the season we are in. 

Tyson has been a trooper and really doing everything. He gets home at 7 and feeds the girls (usually with some form of takeout) while I lay on the floor so nauseous. Then I got to bed at 8 pm and try to sleep. 

The reason why I even thought I was pregnant is that I had not been able to sleep for several weeks and my back hurt. I thought it was my period starting but it never came. 

So sleep is really hard - and i'm not even showing yet. I toss and turn and wake up 4-5 times. I'm still so tired. 

We have not really told anyone because I am still coming to grips with it. I know the Lord is watching to see my attitude during this trial and sadly so far I am not doing well - but every day I pray that he will help me get through this.