The biggest one is that I found out I'm pregnant. I am right at 7 weeks.
I wish I could tell you I was happy - but to be honest I am very sad. I was so extremely content with my little family. But like all trials you never ask for them and yet they make you better.
I am pulling all my strength to see this in a positive way.
This is surely God's work since we were preventing in multiple ways. So here I am, pregnant and so sick I can barely do anything. We were suppose to leave to Cancun on Saturday for a much needed vacation but we canceled it. Between me being so sick and the Zika virus - we just felt it was better to stay. We are bummed. But this is the season we are in.
Tyson has been a trooper and really doing everything. He gets home at 7 and feeds the girls (usually with some form of takeout) while I lay on the floor so nauseous. Then I got to bed at 8 pm and try to sleep.
The reason why I even thought I was pregnant is that I had not been able to sleep for several weeks and my back hurt. I thought it was my period starting but it never came.
So sleep is really hard - and i'm not even showing yet. I toss and turn and wake up 4-5 times. I'm still so tired.
We have not really told anyone because I am still coming to grips with it. I know the Lord is watching to see my attitude during this trial and sadly so far I am not doing well - but every day I pray that he will help me get through this.
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