I kept thinking about him the weeks before. The day before I talked to Tyson and we spent some time remembering him and what we learned.
It was sad. Saturday we decided to spend the day doing fun family things - but got sideswiped when Tyson and Tevita spent 8 hours attempting to change Tyson's brake pads. I took the girls to a Harvest Festival in Thornton, then that night we had a U of U vs BYU Football game party with the Morris family.
It was a day filled with fun, family, and community. I kept thinking "Baby B would have loved to be with us" and I truly missed him - and yet I know I will see him again and that we will spend time as a family.
I've been really struggling lately with feelings of depression. It started a few months ago - and who know's what trigged it. Heaven knows we've had a tough year and yet I feel completely surprised by it.
It like I just slowly lost my motivation and energy. The thing that has kept me going is saving up and buying my Pedego Cargo bike. It was used and I got a pretty sweet deal on it.
I feel like I am not present on anything - I see the kids laughing and playing with Tyson and I see them and I say to myself "this is a great moment" and yet I don't feel anything.
I am going to my doctor next week and do some blood test. I also wonder if its my thyroid.
Either way, I have not been myself for a few months and I miss me.
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