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I have tried to post my pictures but it's being stubborn. Will continue tomorrow. Good night.

Moving Pictures

Here are some pictures from our amazing move! Cannot believe how fast time went. We are loving Denver so far. People are great. The Primerica opportunity here is so wide open. We want to make sure we thank all the amazing people that came over to help us move. My brother Julio, neighbor Chris, home teachers Craig and his sweet wife Kristen,and our good friend Dave wright. Thank you thank you thank you!








Even in the middle of the 10 hour drive - Debbie still wanted me to have my birthday meal. Who would have known the only restaurant at 1 am would be McDonalds? So we celebrated my 27th birthday with crispy chicken sandwhiches and yummy fries.






Since we got to Colorado so stinking late - we decided to get a hotel room. Debbie again was a saint and treated us to the local Ramada Inn, but honestly it could have been a motel six for all I cared. After 10 hours of driving ... a warm bed is all I could ask for.




Saturday morning truly a miracle. Tyson and I are taking Financial Peace University form a local church - when they found out we were moving they offered to help - not lets get this straight. This was NOT the my church. These good people did not know us from Adam and yet they still showed up, helped and were AMAZING! Rebecca is the lead coordinator. They were such warm people. We felt so blessed.





We woke up Saturday morning @ 7:40 am. We made a quick stop at the Scotthorn baseshop training and then got back to unpacking and orgazing. Around 2 pm we were starving so we heaed to Black Eye Peas restaurant for some yummy food. The rolls were amazing! We headed home and unpacked until 2 am on Saturday.

Sunday we woke up at 10:30 am and attended our new ward. It was really cool to see our new ward family. I'm excited to build relationships here.

48 hours later ...

It's been 48 hours. We have been working non-stop to get our apartment ready before Debbie goes home. I can't even begin to tell you how amazing Debbie has been. I keep telling her that she saved our butts but she just smiles. She really does not get it . She is probably a reason why Tyson and I are not already moving back to SLC :)

Went to our new Ward today. Met a guy that grew up with Tyson's dad - naturally. Had dinner at our own table. Noticed we get free Internet - we are crossing our fingers that we can continue to enjoy that little blessing. Moved stuff to clear out Tyson's office. Said lots of prayers for lost phones, sore muscles and turkey chili. Debbie has taken a lot of pictures. Can't wait to get them and show them.

So far it does not feel real. It feels like a fun vacation. I'm pretty sure once Debbie goes home at 10:34 am tomorrow - it will hit me. Still, I can't help but think of our blessings and of the awesome things we will do here.

One word to describe today: Grateful

We are here

We arrived at 1:30 am last night. We stayed at the Ramada Inn. Tyson is at his first traning. We are so blessed.

Holy Crap...

Today is the day. We don't "move out" until next Friday, but we have to get everything packed today because we head to Vegas on Monday. Not a big deal I thought - oh wait I still have to do appointments and finish up business. I am still thinking "where is all the crap from?" I mean I am NOT a pack rat and still I am amazed at all the stuff we have.

I'm stressed. I'm feeling so overwhelmed. Twice today I have just stopped and almost brought to tears just thinking "what the #@*% am I doing moving to Colorado?". I knew I would have these feelings - I just thought it would be on the road to Colorado.

I have a client meeting today at 5, then traninig tomorrow plus a team activity, plus my sister is coming in town to say goodbye - so I have to squeeze her in. Oh man I wish I could just stop the world from spinning for about .... 5 hours.

Since this is my only semi-journal, I want to make sure I write what I am feeling. I'm sure in a couple of years I will look back and wonder why I was so scared. I'm sure I will love Colorado. This is that great adventure I have been wanting my whole life - I guess I just realized how boring and scary and adventure can be.

At this point I just want to throw everything away - and believe I am. Food, containers, towels - all going to the dump or D.I. I became very generous whenever I move :)

Last night my throat hurt - I was up at 4:51 am getting something, anything to help my throat. Oh wait ... everything is PACKED. It sucked. I went to bed and just stared. Stared at my room, my closet, my window, my neighborhood. Everything I knew. it all felt so good. I stared at Tyson. This move is because of him. To give him, us, the chance we deserve to make Primerica work for us. Everything will change, has to change. I never want Tyson to ever think I held him back - but sometimes I am paralyzed to move. My heart is thumping hard. I'm scared but can't take it back now. Now it's just time to make it work and lots, lots, lots of prayers.


We will spend this weekened at my parents house so I can get this placed fully packed and clean. Vegas Monday - Thrusday night. Friday we load up and drive. Arrive an unpack in Colorado Saturday. This is madness.

Fight or Flight

Tonight turned out unexpectedly great. Tyson was double booked with appointments. So I went. I was terrified. Let me repeat, t.e.r.r.i.f.i.d.e. I remember hating the fact that Tyson was double booked. Still I knew what I had to do.

Back in 08.2008 we were in Georgia for the massive Primerica conference. It was life changing. Tyson and I snuck down to the bowl and heard the most inspiring words in my young 24 year old life. I was filled with this hope for what our life could be. I resolved to do whatever I could to be a great wife and partner. Fast forward two year. I am fully licensed. I run the office. I train agents. I input FNA's. All of it I love, except going on appointments. I get scared. I fear rejection. Gee I guess I'm just normal.

The key though - is that I still do it despite my fear. I do it not just for Tyson, but to prove to Martha that I can. I can do anything I really set my mind to do. I am strong. I can move to Colorado and be successful. I can be a great wife. I can be a great mother. Success is not a single event - but a many little moments put together.

Tonight I had success. I came home and Tyson was so proud. He knew worse case - he could count on me. I'm grateful to have conquered my fear of 2.10.2012. Even if it was just a small one. I walked out and said a prayer in my heart and thought "for if God is with me, who dares stands against me".

btw: I closed the sale. That always helps.

Will the packing ever end?

T-minus 12 days. Our house is almost packed. We are running out of clothes since most of them are packed, we are down to certain staple foods and we are not buying any new groceries.

The last couple of weeks have been a blur. juggling the office, appointments, packing, transferring licenses and switching address has taken a ton of time. Tonight I got to spend with Melynda. I heart Melynda. Truly a friend that just gets me. We talk about everything and anything. Tonight we discussed couponing, paying off a house, kids, funny videos, family drama - really anything. All I know is that I always feel great after being with her. Her sweet boys know Tyson and I. It's sad to know I won't see them for a while. We had breakfast for dinner. I'll miss that.

Melynda is expecting her first baby girl - Elisabeth. I'm sad I won't be here to see here, but you better believe I will be calling a lot.

People have asked if I'm scared. I guess I'm over that stage. I have late night stomach pits that wonder if we are just too crazy. Then I stop and pray. I always feel better. I have a great dream of what I want this move to look like - I'm sure God has a different plan. Still, I can't help but think that things will be better than I ever expected. I'm moving into a smaller place, so late nights consist of creative ways to fit into our new 700 sq. apartment.

Tyson bought a new computer and printer for our new office. He got a great deal and got the most ginormous screen ever ... he is just giddy. Tonight he attended a training by Phil Cochrane. We are so lucky to have such great mentors.

This week I learned to mend Tyson's suit in my sewing class - it's alot harder than I thought. Sewing has been a cool experience - can't say that it's a passion, but more of a cool skill. Next week I graduate and learn to follow a pattern.

Nothing outside of that is really happening. I just want to remember this time in my life - when nothing seems impossible.