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We had a grear lesson in church today about teaching youth about life and staying close to the gosple. I think about Sydney. I thought the only thing I would worry about at this age was getting sleep and getting to know her. I was expecting stress over poopy diapers, formula and not having enough diapers. What I wasn't expecting is how much I hurt for the future things Sydney will have to face. Bullies, dating, broken hearts, disappointments. It's like I think about her being 4 months and then 24! I think about her teenage years -what on earth is she going to have to face and what kind of crazy styles will she have to fight againts. The last part of the lesson had us think about what we would want to tell youth about what we learned. I've really been thinking about what I learned loved when I was in my teens. .i do remember thnking that this was it, that somehow after 18 life would just stop. I was sooo wrong. Life just starts and gets better and better! Being 11 years out of high school, I can honestly say that there were the best 11 years so far.

I plan to write a letter to Sydney this week - with advice that comes from being 29, not 40 or something crazy. it's alot of deep stuff I did not think I would really worry about so soon - but I do. I've had this crazy fear the last couple of days that she might be sad inside. Call me crazy. I worry that she is sad or bored or wishing she was with another family. I worry I'm doing it wrong, what ever "it" means anyway. Tyson keeps telling me I am doing great and that Sydney is a happy baby who is lucky to have us as parents - I feel we are lucky to have her. She has brought so many new cool things into our life.

Yesterday we went to a quick bbq with the Meakins and Gardner family. They have cafe rio pork - so good. Sydney was down at 7 pm. We talked to my mom and Julio on the phone, then watched survivor. Church was good. This week should be pretty chill. Tyson has a big managers meeting wth Extra Space and is excited about it. He is really enjoying the new challenge and his time management is getting so good. This feels like really ramdom posting but its good to get your feelings out.

BTW - Ive lost 10 lbs so far! I am 7 lbs away from my pre-prego weight. I'm loving working out and running with Sydney.

Brad Romeros Birthday

Last Saturday we had a surprise birthday party for Brad Romero. He is a great friend from the ward. We met at the Johnson's house at 5 pm. Brad got there at 5:20 pm and was totally surprised. We had a great dinner of hamburgers, salads and the most amazing cake by Kristen Johnson.

It was a great time. Honestly not much has happened the last couple of weeks. We have been staying home and just chilling. Sydney has been a doll. Sleeping 7-7 and filling our lives with giggles and new growths. She now loves to pull her feet up and tries to eat them. She is drooling all over. She is sleeping great with her blanket.

Its been a great way. We have been enjoying the warm weather. We are outside alot. I even bought a running stroller and have loved doing that with Sydney.

Few Pics

LIttle Green Ray of Sunshine

Last night Sydney woke up at 4:30 am. That hadn't happend for almost a month. In a way I'm kind of glad though (She is probably going through a growth spurt since she downed 5 ounces and then went straight back to sleep).You see part of me wonders if I could do it "again". The new newborn stage thing. We want to have more babies and so we decided since we have ferttility issues anyway, for me to never go back on birth control. We have been told that the chances of us "accidently" getting pregnant are pretty slim, so we are not worried. We are hopeful. We want to get pregnant sooner rather than later.

Which goes back to my weird fear. Sydney is at such a sweet spot. She's fun, she laughes, she S.L.E.E.P.S. We worked really really hard to get her on a good routine and thankfully it's been so worth the work. Sydney is so happy, because she is well rested. But what if I can't do that again? What if doing the feeding every three hours, 24/7 is too much? What if it really does kill me this time? I think being a first time parent gives you this extra motivation to do the middle-of-night-feedings, you dont' know know any differently. However with the 2nd one you know just how hard it will be. I guess that's the part that scares me. I think about it alot actually and I try to convince myself that I could do it again, and probably better and faster because I actually know that I will know and love my baby.

I know it's a weird thought since Sydney is only 4 months old, but my mind races at night. I think about everything - Sydney, Tyson, work, baking, money, work outs, clothes ..... and sometimes it feels like too much. So I shut my mind out and focus on the now. Like Sunday morning when Sydney looked like a little leprechaun :)

Sydney Laughs when Mommy Coughs

Bath Lover

Sydney loves her baths. One of the best things that we bought was a "Whale of a Tub" bathtub. We use  to bathe her everynight as part of her routine but the Colorado air was drying out her skin. So now we keep it to twice a week. Still she loves it and could stay in it all day long - the only we reaosn we take her out is that  I'm scared she pees in it and bathing in her own urine - so just to be safe we keep the baths to 10 minutes. I remember when we first gave her one, I was too scared to too do, my abuelita and mom did it. The 2nd one was given by Debbie. finally after almost 4 weeks of life, her parents stired up the courage to giver her one. It's been bliss eversince.

The last couple of days have been filled with giggles, smiles and some f ussing. Sydney is a joy. I find myself with a massive need to kiss her and hold her and never let her go. Its' funny because most of my friends have his sympton with their last baby, but I guess I have it from the very gecko. I don't mind. I see her as this precious gift that I waited so long to have. I'm sure I will have my days of wanting to cry and pull my hair out. But not today. Today is just bliss. I mean, look at her!

Nursery Decor

We made this banner for the front room but after this month I decided to put it in Sydneys room. I also finally put up the cute little bow holder that Debbie made for Sydney. It actually feels like the nursery is done. The only thing I wish is that I could have some doors on the closet doors. I love that it's simple and have lots of colors - outside of pinnk :)

Free Pancake Day

This year Melissa and I took the girl to ihop pancake day. It was yummy. After we hung out at home while the girls napped. I love that picture of Sydney - it looks like she is trying to hold her own bottle.

Sydney 4 Months

Sydney Fun Facts:

1. You grab things now. You love your play mat and came make the big bumble bee make noise

2. You put anything made out of cloth to your mouth. You love the teething blankie we bought you and chow down on the froggies ears.

3. You go to bed between 6:30 - 7 pm, have a dream feed at 10 pm and then stay down until 7 am the next morning.

4. You recognize mommy and daddy. You follow up across the room

5. You are officially giggling. You love when we kiss you neck, give you belly raspberries and play peek-a-boo

6. You still love your baths even though we have cut back to twice a week

7. You love to be put up in the air and look like you are flying

8. You love it when we sing to you, specially "in the jungle", "popcorn popping" and "heavenly father loves me"

9. You hate sleeping anywhere else but your bed, in fact, sleeping in the carset is pretty non existant. You might take 15 minute nap, but nothing more

10. You bumped mommy head a week go for the first time and made your first pain cry. It was high pitched and so sad/funny. You tend to be very sensative.

11. You learned to turn the pages in your books a couple days ago!

12. You can usually play independantly for 15 minutes at a time, except past 5 pm. Right before bed you become super needy.

13. Love spending Monday's with your daddy. You also are a great chiropractor companion when he has his appointments.

14. You are becoming much more of a social smiler. You will smile at strangers and are much easier to take out.